This is an ongoing multi-media project on how we rewrite our memories using grief and gratitude to serve our personal narratives. As the primary caregiver of both my maternal and paternal grandmothers for five years, I learned so much about myself and the women who raised my parents. I saw the toll the patriarchy had on both my grandmothers and how they flourished after the unfortunate end of their husbands. I saw the fears conditioned in them from birth, the patterns of behavior created to serve their husbands that were unwoven with the passage of time. I witnessed them embracing life, beauty, pets, food, and play. I heard their memories of their deceased husbands change to fit these new healthy narratives of living on.
I have many photographs of my grandmothers from this time, and images taken by others long before I was on this earth. This project explores double exposure, and the addition or covering of photographs with paint and other media as a metaphor of how we use our powerful emotions -especially grief and gratitude- along with current personal narratives to rewrite our memories of the people who loved us so we can live healed with them missing from our lives.
We must live fully and whole even when we never will be again, and so we rewrite our memories with grief and gratitude.
This project will not be displayed until it is finished.